Sunday, May 20, 2018

Purpose

Everyone has them.
You use them for a variety of things.
Yet you’ve never given thought to their necessity.
Words formed to convey feelings.
Pressing against others from time to time.
Enjoyable, yes. But not impactful.
Not life changing.
Yet.
But then you collide.
Hearts, souls, and minds.
And you never knew 
That two sets could match so exquisitely,
And you were destined to kiss frequently.
You then realize that her lips 
Have given your lips purpose.

Thursday, May 10, 2018

Vision

I can look for hours
And admire the life in your eyes
I am both lost 
And found
I am someplace I’ve never been
And in the most comfortable place I’ve known
Know what I see?
There’s so much happening
I see you
The real you
I see hope
I see God
I see love
I see depth
I see thought
I see the sum of all your experiences
I see possibility 
There are a million more things there
Waiting for me to see them

Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Of Hypocrisy

  For me...there might not have been a more impactful statement made to me in my life. Made with complete respect. No malice involved.
  I had explained it all, best that I could. I’m terrible with sharing feelings, so I babbled my way through it. Did my best, given the amount of scotch already coursing through my veins.
  He took it in and formulated his response. Thoughtful and well spoken. And then he ended with the following;
  “That’s not the Mark Youngblood I know.”
  Holy. Shit.
   If you know me very well you’ll know I despise hypocrisy. I knew that that’s exactly what I was doing. I think I even said I was aware of it. But then for him to say it out loud...for me to hear...now knowing others saw it, too...I could actually feel the sentence drift down and kick my soul. How can I preach that I hate it, teach my kids that it’s utterly gross, and then outright live it?? How dare I?!
  Commence shame spiral.
  I’ve felt bad enough for long enough. Shame spiral certainly didn’t feel great, but it probably needed to happen. If you’ve bottomed out...reached the absolute impenetrable floor...then you can only go up.
  Go. Fucking. Up.
  Quit wishing. Quit hoping. Quit waiting.
  Do it yourself.

A lifetime of thanks to Landry Griffith. Wise beyond your years.

Tuesday, May 1, 2018

What if it’s true?

What if it’s true?
The things your brain tells you
The doubt and angst swirling
The fog and haze of self loathing
You were important
Other things matter more
They deserve so much better

What if it’s true?
The things your brain tells you
Maybe it could be better
Try something new
Something has to change
It’s going to kill you
You deserve so much better

What if it’s true?
The things your brain tells you
You can only be you
You matter
Things will only get better
You can find it
And it will find you, too


Wednesday, April 25, 2018

Hiding

Hurry
Hurry and take me home
So I can feel
Your skin 
On my skin 
Your hair becomes my shelter
As it falls around my face
My breath 
In your neck
Telling secrets 
Only your hips will hear
Learning 
Curving 
Thighs embraced 
Outlines traced
With fingertips and whispers

Sunday, April 15, 2018

Unnecessary


When you can’t reach them
When it’s all changed 
It’s not a puzzle, because there’s nothing to solve

You’ve become unnecessary 

When they can’t describe what it is
Because there’s nothing to describe
It disappeared in a fog of selfishness

You’ve become unnecessary 

You try to explain
You try to show
Favors and notes and declarations go unnoticed

Effort is unnecessary 

Fill the void with indifference 
Replace the nothingness with hate
Lash out in the worst of ways

It's all become unnecessary





Saturday, April 14, 2018

Word Boners- ADULT CONTENT

Word boners
  "You're a word slut...I just used one of your favorites three times...if that doesn't make you hot, nothing will." he professed.
  "I get turned around easily...you think it's cute." she snapped back as she pursed her lips.
  Trying to get her to engage fully, he asked, "Do you have any favorite words? Like ones that sound funny or are hard for other people to say..."
  "Yes!" she exclaimed. "But they don't come to mind."
  He sighs and rolls his eyes.
  "Three that come to mind are "I'll cut you," she retorted as she squinted.
  He winked.
  Realizing he wanted a real answer she said, "Oy...Totes...Adorbs with an S, not a Z because that's ridiculous...Yes, Sir...Feel."
  "Yes, Sir" made and arching wave in the space in his stomach.
  "Machu Picchu, callipygous, chupacabra, exsanguish..." in a loud voice, as if he was implying that he had just won this competition.
  Her eyes widened and an uneasy look came over her after the last one. He furrowed his brow to remind her that it was merely a word, not a threat.
  Warming up to the challenge she dropped, "Dabble."
  "Finagle," he shot back.
  Her Texan started to show..."Sesquicentennial."
  He stood up and advanced towards her, realizing that she had taken the lead.  Taking two steps forward he raised an eyebrow with a "now what?" fashion and said, "Discombobulate."
  She now rises, also, and backs away two steps only to find the wall has stopped her.  She's reluctant to turn her head to find an alternate route. Losing sight of him could mean trouble, knowing he likes to chase.  With her hands now twisted nervously in her shirt tail she says, "Ogle," with a hint of her own eyebrow.
  A wry grin peeks out of his beard.  He slowly advances two more steps.  She's now within arm's reach, but he doesn't extend.
  She takes in a breath during the course of, "Obfuscate," and holds it.
  Locking his gaze on her, he mutters "Sesquipedalian," through the grin.  She can feel the resonance in his chest as he finishes his word as its now pressed against hers.  She begins to moderate the exhale and tells him, "I've actually used that word before."
  He now leans his body weight into her against the wall.  His lips graze against her neck, up to her ear where he growls, "You're fucking hot," emphasizing the "f" sound.
  Her breathing has escalated.  "No, you..." she puffs. At the bottom of an exhale she squeezes out, "Didactic."
  He deeply breathes in her scent. At the space where her ear and her jaw meet, he exhales, "Phallic," highlighting the consonant sounds.
  His thumbs hook through the belt loops on her jeans.  Ratcheting them in his fists, he begins to push her waist to the wall.  Her hands slide up his chest to his face.  She runs her fingers through his beard and whispers, "Orifices."
  The fist ratchets release and unbutton her jeans.  He slides the waistband down over her curves and she steps out of them.  Panties follow, only much less patiently.  Unbuckling his own belt and jeans for fear of their faces losing contact, he sucks her bottom lip and presses his raging cock against her wetness...releasing her lip, through gnashed teeth he pushes forth a resonating "engorged."
  Raising on leg around his hip, she pulls him in and feels him push inside of her.  She mutters, "engulf."
  His hand squeezes the ass cheek of her raised leg. "Thrusting," he murmurs, as he begins to lift her with each push.  She continues to keep his face pulled against hers and buries her lips in his ear..."liberate!"  She squeezes every available muscle as he raises her clear from the floor. 
  Feeling each other's continuing contractions as they grin, nose to nose, she mutters, "Fuck."
  "That's THE word," he replied. "You win."